SO I took another stroll down memory lane....on face book. Well I was kind of browsing shit and faces. I came to a conclusion there.....I really did fucking hate a lot off people, people that look successful/happy now.
I suppose my attentions would have been better served elsewhere then since my unbridled annoyance can only lead to success and said happiness. Maybe I should have been really down on world hunger or peace....maybe I should have been really down on aids and spontaneous human combustion.
I dont know, I think it all just gets jumbled the fuck up over time, which slips by faster as you get older since life sucks more. Bidding time for that vacation? Just going through the motions? yeah that's a couple of reasons it does that....its like going to sleep at nineteen and waking up thirty five.
Then you look back at what you didn't accomplish and think well fuck me now I have to catch up or something. Just get a gun and kill yourself before you get any other ideas with it...since it's about as productive as trying to friend these strangers to the land of men. But of course that's just my opinion. And like a radioactive asshole it to the toxic avenger....mine matters more than anyone else.
All of that said, there are a couple of people I would still like to beat or maim, and some id like to just talk to I suppose. Then others I couldn't give a fuck about if they had a briefcase full of money for me. Its been a hell of a ride in adulthood so far.....and most of it sadly has been boring like school, since you have to learn so much then you die.
Now if that knowledge helps you in the bowels of hell *of heaven, cough, I mean* I cant say. I vote probably fucking not....so I guess I should say enjoy it while its here? No make it work, then hope you get to die quiet and easy and someone gives a fuck. Its a better way to do it than trying to grand stand on a social media site made for the new KGB ffs.
Take it as it is children, real friends will stay around or always remember you and that acquaintance can go fuck themselves with Betty Whites used tampons. They left you for a reason....